I wake up after a bad dream. In the dream one of my fellow trainers (one with a bit of local trainer-celebrity-ism) tells me in a neutral tone, in my home, and in my problem child's boycave, that I suck. 'Your training looks pretty good at first" he says with his boyish good lucks, and then everyone sees that actually I suck at it. I tell him "Well, you suck too." Neither of us is that offended. And I wake up.
Next I remember that I wrote yesterday (and "published" to facebook which really only means that maybe someone in the Phillipines creating false facebook indentiies for sale may have come across it during her lunch hour) that I was just here for the money.
I have to make a living. So I'm here at this conference.
At our welcoming yesterday, at a moment when my enthusiasm was peaking, H.G. our host, said his intention for this week was PURPOSE AND MISSION.
A little more Preface:
What I don't like about how money is used is that the need for it infiltrates everything. Meaning, the threat of not having it. It's always there (unless you have plenty of it -- and actually there is never enough of it no matter how externally rich you are). The threat that your needs will not be taken of. This is first chakra stuff.
My needs in this moment, are being taken care of by something. Some energy that I am tapping into, or that is tapping to me. It is here. I can't deny it anymore than I can deny the warzones. I am being taken care of. Thank you thing that is energy.
MY PURPOSE AND MISSION
We're in the middle of the Greatest Story Ever Told. Mine is about the role of money.
Given it's role, specifically in terms of our collective cultural anthropology, money was used as a tool for two very different purposes. When those purposes clashed/crashed around the time of the Renaissance, great light was released, and much suffering ensued and continues to ensue. But the story we've told each other about this potent energy is just a story and it has created a false foundation for our interactions with each other.
I have no credentials to pontificate about our collective cultural anthropology. Just a purpose and a mssion. May God help us on the road of Purpose and Mission, paved with all those good intentions, to trust that whatever we decide out P&M is, we do the least possible amount of harm to our fellow earthly inhabitants, and the most good.