I took my mother to the bank today to give them her signature for our new joint account. It will really be her account, but I will manage it with all the monies deposited there, which go to support her, me and my two children. Our income comes from her social security, her teacher’s pension and when we need more than that from a brokerage account. (And some income of my own which provides a few extras) She asks “Why are we doing this? Why are we changing banks?” Three or four times because she can’t retain the information. Why am I doing this? I re-ask myself. Is it worth it? This is hard, sitting here with the cute bank officer young enough to be my son. Well that part isn’t hard except that Im yawing and trying to stay awake, let alone focused on goal.
I am taking these steps to help pave the path that others haven taken and more will take after me. We have to come up with a new way to relate to each other economically, some way that does not finally in the end so damage our life support systems that we destroy the possibilities for our continued life, and that of the species that are left, here on Planet Earth.
That’s why. AND I’m doing it-- thanks to my perseverance and the following of my intuition over many years – because I believe that this is a path I must take.
I listened to some Abraham-Hicks today. I won’t go into why they bug me. Cause the parts that are important are way more important than the parts that bug me. And here it is. I can see I need to envision the better world my heart knows is possible to borrow a phrase from my hero Charles Eisenstein (http://charleseisenstein.net/project/the-more-beautiful-world-our-hearts-know-is-possible/)
So here goes: I know in my heart, that the possibility that humans live on this earth peaceably and where everyone has enough to eat and a decent environment to live in and with freedom exists. And I believe that there are technologies (and by that I mean inventions yet to come) which will make us understand why we’ve had to take this crazy journey here to the brink and stare collectively into the abyss.
It’s clear that we humans are causing the conditions which are causing this mass extinction, global warming, yah yah yah. And there is a big picture we are not privy too but that we are every last bit a part off. A-H says, think it, want it, desire it, know that it is done. So that is my task here, to see what’s possible, to dream it, and to trust.
My finance makeover, that’s all part it. It’s the part of the big picture being played through me. And it’s my honor and joy to play my role. Plus this makeover, it’s just kind. Putting money in places unconsciously, not knowing what it is doing? That is unkind, reckless and creates outcomes that I do not intend. These efforts remind me that I have compassion for all living beings. And compassion is true nature -- yours, mine and ours.